With my love of history, culture, logic and my intense desire to affect a change on the world we live in, I think I have narrowed some of my possible futures down. With my study abroad experience and childhood of traveling, I can tell you without a doubt I love to travel and see the world, studying the cultures first hand, I study those things that appear to make us different but see nothing but greater and greater similarity. I also know that I have an intensely rational mind, most people who have known me for more than a couple minutes can tell you that. I know that this may come off that I have delusions of grandeur, however I know what I am capable of when I put forth any real effort and therefore know what degree of change I can affect upon the world. I have known for as long as I can remember that I love history, but see little world changing applications for that love. Now that I have come to realize that medicine is not my future, at least not foreseeably, I spend my time trying to determine what I am really interested in. I still feel that to save a life, to prolong life is one of the greatest gifts one person can give another, however now I feel that I can succeed in that dream in other ways, and know that I must find a field to which I have a great passion for if I am going to truly be successful.
It is because of this I wanted to become a doctor, I wanted to know that I had saved a life due to my direct action, that a person would have died if I hadn't been there to change their fate, I felt that this would give the greatest meaning to my life. I have long thought that due to my lack of any spiritual beliefs and therefore no personal belief in an afterlife, the actions of an individual during their lifetime are what give their life meaning, nothing else.
However the reason I felt the need to study medicine is that I wanted to tangibly save a life. I have long felt that I had to study medicine, and to be true, I loved many of the classes I took that are meant to lead me toward a medical career. I believe I will always find science incredibly fascinating, but I don't believe my future lies in a scientific field. In addition to my feelings toward the city of Buenos Aires, metropolitan areas as a whole, and my feelings toward the term "home" I have discovered some true interests on this trip. The building doesn't matter, while I have an attachment to the two homes I was raised in, I feel at home wherever I find my family. My home is where my family is, anywhere else is just a temporary residence. At this moment, I will say that home is most definitely where the heart is, no matter how cliched that sounds. I know that if there is one thing I know, it is that I am meant to travel more, see the world and its people, before I declare a home where I will settle for any considerable amount of time. Off the top of my head, Boulder, CO, Burlington, VT, and Ann Arbor, MI come to mind. However, in the United States, it is far easier. Internationally it is more difficult to live in a small city (50,000-250,000 inhabitants) that provides all the things you could ever want, while still allowing you to escape the hustle and bustle for an afternoon if you so desired. One conclusion I believe I have made after my time here is, although I love visiting large cities and spending time in them as there is always something to see and do, I much prefer a small city.
The city I feel would have to make some extraordinary changes for me to ever fall in love with it. I believe this and stay optimistic toward my opinion of the general populace. I have been told that, as is true in Michigan, people's spirits warm with the weather. I have found a few good friends and food that I enjoy. I have come to enjoy much of my time here.
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